Photo taken by Owen Newton

I want to live in a dream world. I want to feel like my house has turrets and my garden is acres wide. I want butterflies everywhere. I want big puffy white clouds and blue skies with the occasional rain for the purpose of creating a rainbow and keeping my flowers pretty. I want a cat or two to roam about and remind me how to be independent.

This isn't a dream world. It's the real world but to an extent it can be whatever I want it to be. I don't have to become a doctor or a full time mum unless I want to. I don't really even have to go to work if I don't want to. Everything that I do is my choice.

Last night I decided to make good choices. When I see an opportunity I'm going to take it. I'm not going to wait for something to come along, I'm going to start something. I just have to remind myself to stay motivated. Motivation is something I often struggle with because I have it intensely for all of five minutes and then I have even less than I did before but that's okay. I need to use it to my advantage.

I'm going to do as much as I can in my five minutes as humanly possible and by then I will be too far along in the project to avoid completing it. There is always a reason to stop.

1. It wasn't good enough/working.
   Nothing is perfect on the first draft, that's why they call it a first draft.
2. I got bored.
   Do something else for ten minutes and then come back to it, I'm sure you'll have a new pair of eyes.
3. It wasn't popular enough.
   Of course it wasn't, it was unfinished. Stop trying to share things with people before you've even written the ending. You wouldn't publish this blog post at this point.
4. I'm not talented enough.
   It is next to impossible to judge your own talent. Let someone else do it, stop making decisions for them. If you tell them you aren't good enough, they may be inclined to believe you.

I recently ordered the 3 colour blonde, brown and black Krinklepuffs hair falls from CyberloxShop and I couldn't be happier with them. They looked almost identical to the picture online and the only difference in them that I found is that they seem longer in person. However, as someone who is forever buying different types of hair extensions I am definitely not going to complain about the extra length.

There are two hair falls that you receive and you can either wear one as a ponytail or two if you want pigtails (who doesn't, right?). In the picture above I am wearing one of the hair falls and as you can see they are full of volume! They are very easy to put in as all you need to do is tie your hair up into one or two buns to prepare. Each hair fall has a band of elastic at the top which you simply tie around the buns. Which is a lot faster than straightening/curling your hair if you're in a rush.

To see how wearable the dread falls are I decided to wear them to work today which was a nine hour shift. You are aware that you are wearing them but if you put your hair up well they will not tug at your hair or anything and they are a lot lighter than they look.

I would happily wear one of these on an everyday basis and opt for the two for a night out! The service from Cyberlox UK was also great as they were not expensive and only took 4 working days to arrive. When they arrived they were really well packed and it bubblewrap which I find is always great with any hair accessories like this.

Overall, I would definitely recommend CyberloxShop to anyone thinking about purchasing from them as I got a lot of positive comments from customers today whilst wearing my Krinklepuffs!

I am currently in the midst of switching bedrooms with my brothers and this is giving me a nice opportunity to create a whole new aesthetic for my room. With this in mind I have been looking around for inspiration a lot recently and today on my lunch break I spotted two items that are to die for. In theory I cannot really afford them but I have taken pictures of them anyway as I like to see it as an opportunity to find or create something similar.
The first is the beautiful mannequin to the side. I love everything about it and am considering searching for one second hand. It doesn't have to be perfect or upmarket, in fact I think sometimes things are nicer when they're a bit makeshift.
The second is this unique set of drawers. I love that each drawer is different and they even have different sizes and types of handles but the white really pulls it all together. Although it is a bit outside my budget I think this chest of drawers could actually be quite easy to replicate, that may be another blog post for later. 
As I slowly recreate my room I will keep you guys updated on my new purchases and creations. What kind of style does your bedroom have?

Photo taken by Owen Newton

I am one of those people who tries to do things even when I am afraid of them. Which is probably fortunate because I'm afraid of a lot of things. My boyfriend and I went to Oxford on Sunday to do a bit of shopping and he decided he wanted to climb a hill which was part of a castle near the town centre. As you have probably guessed I am extremely scared of heights so this wasn't something I particularly wanted to do.

However, I figured I may as well give it a go. Grasping onto my boyfriend's hand I slowly climbed the hill. (Wearing heels was probably not my best idea). Eventually I reached the top. At the time it seemed really high up and I'll be honest with you I panicked a little but looking back I'm really glad I did it. I didn't fall off and looking at the pictures my boyfriend took it was really beautiful. I'm hoping that if I keep doing the things that make me nervous then I'll stop waiting until they're over to appreciate them. I want to live in the now.

Photo taken by Owen Newton

I am hoping this post may remind you to face your fears. As I am learning that if it is worth doing, it is probably a bit scary to begin with. It's okay to be afraid but it is important that you do your best to confront your fears. Even if you only make it halfway up the hill, or half a step. One foot forward is better than no feet at all. So take a deep breath, take it one step at a time and go as far as you can. We can do as much or as little as we want. Make the choice to go farther. It doesn't matter how fast you get there or where you want to be. Just be brave and don't give up. You'll reach the top of your hill.

And hopefully, I'll reach the top of mine too.

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I've had a bit of a stressful day so I thought I'd write a bit of a motivational post to cheer myself up. As well as any of you out there hit by the Monday vibes. I think 2015 is going to be the year for the busy. We're all going to be moving and doing. Which is great because then we'll all be able to achieve a lot more that way. However, we mustn't forget to take a moment to relax and regain focus. Sometimes it really does help to hit the refresh button.
I like to write lists when things feel a bit hectic. It's a nice way to organise my thoughts. You can write lists about anything; groceries, sports cars or how many types of shoes you have in your closet. I'm also a bit of a stationary fanatic so that probably only adds to my not so cool love of lists. Whether you're a list person or more visual that's fine. I just find that sometimes the best thing to do is get your thoughts out of your head and onto something a bit more solid.
After you have cleansed yourself of stressful thoughts and things you have to get done then you need to cleanse your body too. My favourite way to do this is with a bath bomb by Lush Cosmetics because we all know that bath bombs are what they do best! I always feel calmest when I am in the bath and it is filled with bubbles, soft scents and a sea of colours.
Then I like to curl up, all soft and cosy with a hot chocolate and reach for a book or the nearest thing with netflix access and go to another world. That's the great thing about books, you can be anywhere you want to be. Which brings me onto a small announcement as I will soon be making book reviews a regular thing each time I finish another novel which I'm really looking forward to. So until next time, remember to breathe and I hope you have a good week!

One confession

I'm not happy with my blog yet

Two recent pictures

On christmas eve I had a cute lunch with my work friend to celebrate and it was lush. (Her name is Melissa and she runs Meja with me).

My mum and I on Christmas day appreciating how medieval our kitchen was looking!

Three things you miss

This is/was the world's most adorable kitty ever.

Sometimes I feel quite thoughtful out of nowhere. I go into that quiet place inside my head and I like to cross my legs with a cup of tea and dwell in it. I think 2015 will be a good year for me. Not because I have good vibes about it or because I think it will be easy. I think that it will be a good year because I have decided to make it one. I am not into the whole "new year, new me" thing because I like to work on myself all year round but that doesn't mean I shouldn't stay focused! This year I plan to:

I only have four of my lavender tea bags left, someone send help!

1. Get Fit
   Not super healthy, I'm a body builder fit but healthy enough that my twiglet arms don't collapse when I carry the shopping home. I am currently debating joining a gym or starting yoga. That or getting my boyfriend to teach me how to skateboard. Imagine how quickly I could get to work!
2. Get Educated
   I don't really feel like college/sixth form is for me but I'm deciding between an online course and just using lots of revision sites and teaching myself things. I don't need certain certificates for the job I am doing so I think a relaxed but focused approach is a great way for me to go.
3. Go Out More
   This probably seems simple to most but I have been very known to hide away at home and go to work and not do a whole lot else in between. I think I'm going to set myself the challenge of doing something at least every two weeks. Whether that be going to the pub, cinema or for a meal. 
4. Travel More
   I  r e a l l y  want to go back to Brighton this Summer. I was so happy whilst I was there that I'd be doing myself a disservice if I didn't go back! I need to go shopping in Oxford with my boyfriend and I'm really excited to rent out a skatepark in Hertfordshire for his birthday!
5. Take More Pictures
   I seem to be taking less and less pictures every year and that's not okay so this year I intend to buy myself a new camera and take pictures of everything. Maybe if any of them are any good (or even if they're not) I will be able to share some of them with you!

Four memories

We were in a band I can't remember the name of and we never played any gigs or wrote any songs.

This is the first time I went to Brighton and it's probably the happiest I have been for years so definitely going back this year!

Just in case you were wondering blondes do have more fun until they realise their hair is falling out and dye it bright red instead.

My friend and I went to the chalk pits near her house and took a bunch of photos of each other. We probably looked quite strange. I sat on an old car.

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